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Money HEALS! LOL!

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Nothing occurs by accident on Planet Serge. It’s all KARMA. So when cult leader Serge Benhayon’s ex wife, book keeper and not so secret keeper, Deborah Benhayon, delivers a presentation on how the Esoteric use of money is a form of HEALING, you can expect it will be followed closely by the cashed up guru himself appealing for funds.

Benhayon’s pitch is preceded by the obligatory ‘meditation’ warm up, aka covert hypnosis without informed consent.

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Instead of meditation we learnt the gentle art of Contemplation – closing our eyes and bowing our head at a slight angle toward the heart and feeling what was being said from the aspect of the inner heart. This was compared to listening in an upright position where the mind is more engaged.

Pondering – is sitting with something- feeling into it with your inner heart

Contemplation – is moving the focus back and forth between engaging your inner heart and your knowledge 

Illusion – is reinterpreting feelings/ knowledge with your lower mind.

If we don’t express from our heart – neck problems

Expressing from our inner heart creates space  by opening up the lymphatic system

Stage 4 of not expressing our feelings – brain tumour 

It was followed by a promo for Natalie Benhayon’s dream interpretation service, Mystic Dentist Rachel Hall of Evolve Dental Healing Kenmore with some loony occult claptrap about fluoridated water and energetic dentistry, then cult physiotherapist and long term SergeCorp business associate, Kate Greenaway, presenting her bent ‘research’ into Connective Tissue Therapy, a scam modality she managed to sell to Evolve College. Serge sold the science of the nadis to really screw with customers’ heads – followed by Debby Benhayon’s panacea – money heals!

It doesn’t heal much, though, does it, Deborah?

Debby Benhayon’s Presentation 

Money – living imprint of who we are

– representation of your light
– comes from kidney energy
– your output
– everything you do, everything you purchase
– it keeps circulating as it is a living thing
– it like a craniosacral pulse outside of you (easy to read)
– lower back problems then you have money issues

 Bookkeeping and Finances

When Debby is working on someone’s books she is healing their kidneys.

Debby can feel the attachment or shame connected to the money 

Later we’ll see how Universal Medicine cures the shame of having money, and suckers’ attachment to it as well.

Sometimes peoples finances are so  overwhelming it is beyond them – to break the illusion is too difficult.     

Need to         –    

– rebuild foundations
– Look at income 
– Look at expenditure, splitting it up over 12 months

Peoplle find themselves in the shame of living in excess to feed themselves back, or stagnation trying to hold it together.

People need to understand that the flow of money comes from them. 

They are still using money to identify back or to feed themselves back something, feeding themselves back their emptiness with no vitality in their day to day lives – recognition of the money to fill their emptiness. They are still living outside themselves. Intention, if not clear from the beginning- coming from contraction.

With change the flow improves, with the realization that money is a part of being in the livingness. 

It is about living as a whole. How you pay is about how you are living day to day. 

Another part of you has to be aware of having to pay bills not as a drudgery. 

The feeling is empowering recognizing a pattern and then moving on to be consciously present. 

The food you buy in disregard feeds you back disregard. 

Everything is an imprint, everything is a receipt, where you were.

Heavy transaction not completing a moment. If you are not completing every moment – it’s a drain on your kidneys.

Have a simple system in place to deal with your finances. Make that choice for yourself.

If you keep your receipts in a shoe box you are hiding everything away.

A manila folder -is open and easy to  add to every day.

Spiking your receipts/ invoices – can’t see the numbers clearly if a spike is through them.

Making money is EASY. It flows and flows out of followers’ pockets.

A lot to learn about how we are – if there is harmony in relationship money flows, if communication is open money flows. If not, aspects where a person is using money in a position of power over another- contraction.

Money shows how you live- is reflected in life. If the way you are earning your money is coming from contraction- no self worth but up for recognition, every time you are paid magnifying self worthlessness.

You are responsible for the energy you are giving money in – if in anger the anger gets circulated through the money. 

Intention – why you do something , the truth of why you do something may be contraction.

Money is about life-force, about how you live with your life-force. Saving – all about the intention why and how. Intention – money saved in bank gets lent out 45x… if saved in the energy of fear and someone borrows it to buy a car- your karma as the car gets bought in your fear imprinted in the money.

Hurling your hard earned $$ into UniMed money for nothing courses is ‘self-love’.

Money spent on Unimed courses etc.- choosing to spend money on self love. 

Money issues around it exposed as not being loving.

Serge worked the price out so that you are only paying for the healing sessions – value the energetic imprint -never charges for accessed information from the Masters.

Keep money as a flow. Thank people for the experience rather than the object or the service. Example of this is when Serge has his hair cut he is able to hold himself in stillness with the hairdresser – never talk. This is a relief for the hairdresser as she also can simply be in stillness and do her job. When she is finished he doesn’t look at his hair he simply thanks her for the experience.

LOL! LMAO!!

Relationship with money – given with love.

It’s all about Karma – the Science of Imprint.

If you receive money from family- inheritance – clear it by putting your passbook on a clearing symbol – you kidneys adopt what you are receiving.

Make sure money/ statement is placed on a clearing symbol – hold it overnight on the symbol.

With a loan from the bank once you get the letter put it on the symbol.

 Just putting a shopping docket on a symbol clears all the shopping.

All the money Unimed is creating is going into the clinic- an ongoing thing. The clinic is for everyone.

La la la, yep, the ‘clinic is for everyone’ and ‘money is a part of being in the Livingness.’ Don’t we know it. So does that mean UniMed students and patients are shareholders?

Where are their dividends?

‘You are responsible for the energy you are giving money in’, is the cue for Serge to enter with a castigating lecture on how to give him money unconditionally. Only death fixated Serge could describe a will as an ‘investment’, and claim a will that is not energetically correct will harm one’s descendants.

Serge talked about Wills

If you leave a child $10,000 dollars and the kids spend that money to keep them in recognition and identification – excess – that holds you in contraction in your next life. 

If you invest wisely in your will this gives you fire in your next life.

If not you leave behind a constant drain on kidney energy and an imprint of a pranic emanation stopping others from being in their centre.

If you give in sympathy no matter how much you give  esoterically you are drained.

Do you clear it from other past lives?

5points of fire everyday, left behind 10points prana, end of the day 5 points of prana.

Yes, an energetically incorrect will that doesn’t include a substantial bequest to UniMed holds investors back from their fiery ascendance! And don’t dare stipulate any conditions to how the money is used, especially when Serge has a thing for prestige property and luxury cars.

If you leave a Will to Unimed and you put a lineal condition that it be used to fund those who can’t afford the courses then that is pranic- putting a lineal condition on a spherical nature, not trusting people will know how to best use it.

Cathars – create a livingness to reincarnate into – that momentum lasted 900years.

We are now starting a new movement and it will not finish like the Cathars as this time nothing will stop the work. As soon as someone really gets and lives the work they become focalisers and will re-incarnate in to other countries becoming a Shamballic point of light on earth spreading all over the world. The student unfolding  will keep coming back into the larger group until you become a developer and then focaliser. 

Whatever. Over to not for profit consultant Tricky Vicky, Victoria Lister, to make it all look legit.

Victoria 

The Universal Medicine Trust

It is still in the planning stages but will be a not for profit organisation / charity, a legal entity, so funds can be donated to it– this structure is the one which best suits what Universal Medicine is all about.- Brotherhood. 

Voila, 2011 and the Universal Medicine College is registered. It’s set up for ‘educational purposes’, so Serge can proselytize his Ageless Wisdom®, that the faithful unisex Brotherhood never question.

Due to her inside knowledge Victoria can ensure that all the boxes are ticked so there are no loop holes – a common problem in not for profit organisations, 

The money with go towards setting up new clinics etc. Next year Serge will announce the Lord Maitreya’s Plan for the work as it will be the 10th Anniversary of Universal Medicine.

And to make sure followers’ funds aren’t diverted to anything worthy:

Charity- was discussed as creating a greater platform of prana for the lords of form.

Occultly – the energy of charity is the same as the energy of a paedophilia as it tries to use an innocent expression to disguse its ill pranic ways. Trying to compensate for own guilt through the use of innocent energy. 

Serge said that if the board was ever to stuff up the trust then the karma they would have would be extremely hard to recover from. More will be made available about the trust by Universal Medicine when it is ready. (Esoteric Development Group notes, Notetaker unidentified, September 2008)

 Related: Sergileaks 1.1: UniMed Brisbane Pty Ltd fundraising

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16 Comments on “Money HEALS! LOL!”

  1. Daoul Ruke says:

    I think this very relevant little scene is not remembered these days.

    Sod the regulations.

    • *sigh* the days when satire was BRAVE!

      Just replace the bowler hats and dark suits with neck scarves and frocks,add some dirty laundry and an array of abuses to the cesspool and you have Universal Medicine’s Livingness community.

      Now, as laughably unsubtle as Sergio’s exhortation for unconditional donations is, it WORKS – to the tune of millions, and I mean millions of $$$ and £££. And seeing financial transparency isn’t Esoteric enough for the cult, we’ll take care of their temporal duties for them, in future posting a few relevant financial items for public perusal.

      And readers, if you have any dirt on them, or anything you think we need to know, use the Contact tab, thx.

  2. RJM says:

    If money heals, apparently Serge just can’t get enough healing. Maybe there’s a guilty conscience eating away at him?

    Financial matters aside, any UM cultist reading this, please, do you yourself a favour: google ‘The Lord Maitreya’ and see for yourself just how many flakes and con artists claim to be in communication with said being, then ask yourself how likely it is that Serge isn’t just another opportunist cashing in on a bunch of Theosophical bullshit.

  3. lou says:

    Lordy lord I wish someone would give me some dosh to clear their evil pranic ways. How can anyone really fall for this. I am dumbstruck . My friends would have spent 1000 s on Sergios fiery sermons. What a con!!

  4. you know who's brother who is right ;-) says:

    Everything is subverted- and perverted- in the world of UM- the great Serge scam.

    It’s so bleedingly obvious that Serge just wants money- and lots of it, probably to make up for his early failures and humiliating dirt poor bankruptcy- yet the poor enchanted students cannot see the woods for the trees.

    Who could sum up the numb skull thinking better than the poster boy for recidivist stupidity-

    Christoph Schnelle, Lismore Region, NSW

    “I react(ed) negatively when I hear the word religion. So much seems untrue about every religion that I know about. I shuddered at being identified with a religion – everybody would know that I accept something as true or believe in something that is obviously not true.”

    Yes Christoph you do believe in something that is OBVIOUSLY not true. Your little logic bereft homily to Serge speak is clearly a justification for how uncomfortable you truly are with what you know to be the BS of Serge’s newly outed religion.

    But for the piece de resistance of ironic justifications, it is over to EW- former “investigator” who seems totally unable to investigate their own frontal lobes with a little bit of self reflection.

    http://truthaboutuniversalmedicine.com/2013/08/28/hate-fanaticism-and-entitlement-the-investment-in-being-right/

    A bit more reading reveals members all trying to swallow the ‘religion’ of the way of the livingness. I guess having been told for years religion sucks and UM is not a religion it is a big leap. But of course, the members work out a way. Just like they have with Serge’s past, his attraction to young girls, his obvious rip offs, and other skeletons many of them are now aware of but whistle blithely on their way to the next meeting or course- like the new one this week.

    Here’s how it works. Tell people they are god, then tell them the bomb is truth and integrity. Keep telling them. Then point them at your detractors. Voila. Spellbound cult members who have no sense of truth, integrity, love or light. Just a swag of lies they have to justify over and over on blogs and in group confessions or at endless meetings, but with a willingness to do and say anything to protect the idea that they are something more than what they really are.

    • Darkly Venus says:

      I was just saying to a Lord of Form, ‘is it just me, or are they making less sense than ever?’ He says it’s them.

      E.W. the ‘police officer’ should stick to writing speeding tickets.

      Seriously, 2000 words on why being right isn’t being in truth®? Right about what? Who is that aimed at? It can’t be an attempt answer to critics because it doesn’t qualify anything. E.W. is probably a SergeProp committee anyway, making a cult generalization about nothing that goes nowhere, like everything cult members write.

      It’s probably a projection of – we don’t need to be right, because we are ‘in truth’. SERGE SAYS SO. Or worse, Serge doesn’t need to be right, because he has exclusive access to the truth®.

      2000 words on rectitude and truth but no mention of facts, abuses, exploitation or responsibility and accountability? So the cult members know it’s not right to defraud medicare and legal aid, molest, lie, pimp their daughters to the cult, sign their names to bogus legal complaints, charge money for nothing, invade others privacy and bully and harass victims. But they take exception to being criticised for it because they’re Sons of God and they’ve paid up for Benhayon’s brand of truth.

      Christoph Schnell is a case study on what happens to the brain due to long term disengagement of the faculty of reason. He makes no sense at all.

    • Yeah, never mind about needing to be right, what really pisses most people off is arseholes doing WRONG. Harmful, corrupt, unlawful, abusive wrong and charging people for it. E.W. probably stands for egregious wanker.

      A police officer who can’t recognize wrong.

      And I know crack addicts who make more sense than Christoph Schnelle.

      The Way of the Livingness is a true religion because of SCIENCE.

      Recently I got a new perspective – religion can be true: actually, it is required to be true if it wants to explain the world. In other words, for a religion to be true, the following has to be true:

      Religion is

      That which is true and
      Does not contradict science and
      Which cannot (yet) be proven by science
      Plus all of science

      I never thought I would come across such a religion, but after listening to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, every statement of the “The Way of the Livingness” that I have heard has either been:

      True as far as I can empirically test it, or it
      Does not contradict science, though often expands on science
      Either cannot yet be proven by science or
      Has been proven by science.

      LOL! As we saw in the post on Sergio’s Ageless Wisdom, Serge says we didn’t evolve from apes, pornography caused Mt Vesuvius to erupt, ‘The Horse, Elephant, Eagle, and Cat for example, will evolve to a Dog, Dolphin or Whale’, and a true seer uses smell as vision!

      SCIENCE!

      Um, religion hasn’t ‘explained the world’ in a long while, and even when it purported to, a heap of people could recognize a metaphor when they saw it. Oh and ‘everything is energy’, so there’s no difference between Schnelle’s cult addled brain and a lump of granite, a pineapple and a dog turd, because he’s CONNECTED IN TRUTH.

      Be warned, we’ll be throwing more Esoteric SCIENCE onto the internet soon.

      • You know whos brother who knows who can smell the future says:

        Yep poor old Christoph doesn’t understand deductive reasoning, or even inductive. He’s just plain loco. Not that he will care, but for the benefit of anyone else lost in lala land that might have a few brain cells left firing, the burden of proof is on Serge/UM/the followers- not science. Incredible claims require incredible proof. You can’t just say- “science hasn’t proved it ‘yet’ or science doesn’t disprove it” for it to be right or “all of science”-

        Serge has to prove that spirits came to earth and had a big fight that made the grand canyon, that evolution never happened, that “prana” (whatever the fuck that is) is causing global warming, and that pornography is raising sea levels and causing earthquakes. I can’t see a time when science will either care/or prove any of that shit. That stuff is the bastion of wacko’s banging away on corners of the internet trying to prove area 54 exists, they had their anuses examined and a secret society rules the earth.

        Christoph connects the dots like an epileptic monkey. But even the monkey will get the banana eventually. However, I am very afraid that is the level of brain power they are now working with. No wonder Sergio can keep sucking the money out of them without them stopping to question it for a second. I can see Christops dumb fuck grin on that picture from the fiery website now. “Der, lemme give you some more money. Derr” and he’s a financial adviser? Classic.

        • That’s one hell of a talent for sales – to sell pseudoscience as science as religion THAT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING.

          I read a great tweet during the election brouhaha last night (commenting on Rudd’s zero humility defeat speech/sales pitch): ‘if you polish a turd too much it disintegrates.’

  5. ''OverLeonardo'sBullshit'' says:

    Whoo Hoo, Go Princess, dont hold back now, lol. Love it 😉

  6. susieQ says:

    http://truthaboutuniversalmedicine.com/2013/09/09/facts-about-universal-medicine-a-dangerous-cult-i-think-not/

    OMG I have been bothered to check anything for a while, it gives me such a headache and annoys me so much – the evil stupidity. I haven’t missed it.

    Christoph Schnell – I have no words. Unfathomable!
    He and the above link are more examples of the blind leading the blind.

    $erge really has the ability to convince these people of absolutely anything.

    When you have been in a cult and left you remain vulnerable to other cults moving in taking over.

    The same is true with sexual abuse victims, they remain vulnerable as well.

    It isn’t a case that because a person ‘has been there done’ that so therefore I am the expert and it won’t happen again. I cured I am immune – quite the opposite.The mind control is just presented in different ways to suck in the vulnerable and needy.

    • RJM says:

      The logic in that latest piece you linked to is “the last cult I was in operated differently. Besides, Serge says UM isn’t a cult, therefore it isn’t”

      For the record Christoph was involved with at least one other cult (the Sannyasins) prior to UM, so his claims to react negatively to the implications associated with religious belief rings false.

      The following comment posted under Christoph’s utterly unsubstantiated, fact-free drivel sums up the ease with which the UM-manipulated mind accepts ‘the ancient wisdom’ without seeing a shred of evidence:

      “I love this Christoph. What can one say to it as there is little room here to question anything, you have it all covered? What you do say is ‘so true’”

      The hardcore UM faithful are so far gone they’re beyond help.

    • ‘facts about universal medicine: a dangerous cult I think not’ written by Jewels by Jacqueline McCoach who didn’t bother disclosing that she and her Mother, Mary Louise Myers, are making money for nothing/careers from their cult connections.

      Esoteric ‘facts’ to match her Esoteric ‘integrity’ and getting its own propaganda slap down as soon as I feel to.

    • you know who's brother who is outside the bubble says:

      To understand where this comes from you need to know the relationships.
      Jacqueline is the daughter of Mary Louise Myers, chief EBM’ist and long time Serge propagandist. Her cousin is Rebecca Baldwin, who sisters are the lie lie lie singers- Sarah and Kyla “small business owner and ball kicker of men she doesn’t know” Plummer.. Kyla and Jaqui are bestest buddies. Her Uncle is duelling Banjo’s band accompanist and her Aunt, also an ardent member, is of course Mary’s sister. Then there’s Johnny “earth is quaking” Baldwin- the clueless younger brother. In other words, the family are in knee deep & sinking.

      Her article, edited by Rebecca judging by the tone, points to the fact that they, like a lot of the population don’t know what a cult is. They are simply reacting to the term. Cult is a contraction of cult-ure. It means a group of like-minded people that have a shared vocabulary and cognitive landscape. At this very basic level, of course UM is a cult. A sub group within ‘culture’. It’s their central assertion. For avoidance of doubt, a football club, a political party, a group of friends can have similar characteristics.

      However, the question is does UM meet the criteria of an destructive cult?
      I was told for a long time that UM was a cult long before I formed the view it was. It is hard when standing inside the bubble to see what it looks like from the outside. It was when I understood that a cult has three central characteristics that I knew it was. They are: An exclusive doctrine- One person who is the sole arbitrator of truth (think one unified truth) and the group is based around one personality. UM meets this criteria exactly.

      But the question is, is the group destructive? That was answered for me when Serge interfered in my relationship. I then went on to understand that he meets all the criteria for a cult leader. The are: An overwhelming interest in money, a reinvention of his past, a desire to be the central figure in the lives of his followers, unusual sexual pathology, control over this inner circle (family and central members). When the media hit, his behaviour was right out of the cult play-book. He backed down on central claims, he struck out at he media, he blamed everyone else for causing his problems, he blatantly lied to the journalists, he covered facts up, he took legal action. Of course by then I was aware that there are scores of families broken down because of UM with the non member partner telling the exact same story of how it collapsed. When I found all of Serge’s notes where he drones on about relationships being imposed, and men being abusive and bullies, and marriages being based on dysfunction (pranic) it was abundantly clear that Serge is an agent of destruction.

      Now outside the bubble I can see very clearly that UM is a cult of a destructive nature. Jacqueline s comparison is meaningless. Its the same animal just a different species. Serge plays the long game. He is also highly manipulative in how he manages to make people believe they are the ones making the decisions, when in fact he offers no choices. Her assertion,along with the rest of her family, that there is nothing sexual about UM is laughable. It is ALL about sex. It is a constant theme. All of the healing is based around women’s sexual organs. Serge has ‘re-sexualised’ them into behaving how he thinks they should. Just check their blog posts. Kyla’s is a case in point. It might be the only so-called ‘enlightenment’ movement in history that focuses on women’s sexual behaviour while denigrating mens. That is before we analyse Serge’s current relationships and other questionable behaviour (that we KNOW is abnormal)

      Jacqueline trotted out the money thing again. It is less stupid that Rebecca’s $5 dismissal, but not much. But it does show how people can be taken to the cleaners and then justify it. This is where Serge is at his best. Conning. And true to form he makes them believe it is optional, while it is clearly not. Today many of them are doing yet another $750 course on a manufactured healing modality that none of them will practice. Serge has them back at one course after another because as she says “they are forever (paying) students”- It never ends. Unless they run out of money. Then they can get ‘credit’ and pay him later. Serge would suck more money out of them than the average in-your-face cult leader exactly because he doesn’t interfere with their ability to make money. He needs them to.

      The fact that members still work and are active in other parts of society is again irrelevant and a misunderstanding of how a cult works. Only a minority lock members up. MOST have their members doing what they normally do, but just thinking differently. That is how cults work.

      And to see this in effect, just observer any UM member around the area. You can see the straining to be “in the livingess’ in the way they walk, eat, look, dress. They usually have an I pod stuck in their ears- my guess listening to Serge or that awful music- and all of them wear the symbols of the group. I’ve seen the same look on Jaquelines face a few times.

      Denial is a powerful thing. Here’s a family that’s known nothing but living under the influence of other personalities. They don’t know what it looks like to get up in the morning and to say “I don’t know, but I feel good, and I am in control of my destiny” They need someone to tell them. They need an answer. They need certainty. And they don’t care if it is a lie, or comes from someone who is clearly a liar. It is a drug they need to keep getting, even if it costs them their house, their marriages, their families, or their lives.

      I for one have to to realise that people live in a cloud of unknowing. There’s two ways out. Realising that is the nature of being sentient in a mystery universe, and observing that mystery for what it is. Or believing in things or people so it will make some sort of sense. ( I give you Christoph) One way is brave, intellectually honest, true. The other is foolish, ignorant and perilous.

      You decide which. They’ve already made up their minds. Or have they?

      • I might just repost this from Rick Ross. Universal Medicine ticks all the boxes for a harmful group but also fits the cult definition – worship of an individual over a principle or philosophy, exploitation and use thought reform techniques.

        http://www.culteducation.com/warningsigns.html

        Ten warning signs of a potentially unsafe group/leader.

        1. Absolute authoritarianism without meaningful accountability.

        2. No tolerance for questions or critical inquiry.

        3. No meaningful financial disclosure regarding budget, expenses such as an independently audited financial statement.

        4. Unreasonable fear about the outside world, such as impending catastrophe, evil conspiracies and persecutions.

        5. There is no legitimate reason to leave, former followers are always wrong in leaving, negative or even evil.

        6. Former members often relate the same stories of abuse and reflect a similar pattern of grievances.

        7. There are records, books, news articles, or television programs that document the abuses of the group/leader.

        8. Followers feel they can never be “good enough”.

        9. The group/leader is always right.

        10. The group/leader is the exclusive means of knowing “truth” or receiving validation, no other process of discovery is really acceptable or credible.

        Ten warning signs regarding people involved in/with a potentially unsafe group/leader.

        1.Extreme obsessiveness regarding the group/leader resulting in the exclusion of almost every practical consideration.

        2. Individual identity, the group, the leader and/or God as distinct and separate categories of existence become increasingly blurred. Instead, in the follower’s mind these identities become substantially and increasingly fused–as that person’s involvement with the group/leader continues and deepens.

        3. Whenever the group/leader is criticized or questioned it is characterized as “persecution”.

        4. Uncharacteristically stilted and seemingly programmed conversation and mannerisms, cloning of the group/leader in personal behavior.

        5. Dependency upon the group/leader for problem solving, solutions, and definitions without meaningful reflective thought. A seeming inability to think independently or analyze situations without group/leader involvement.

        6. Hyperactivity centered on the group/leader agenda, which seems to supercede any personal goals or individual interests.

        7. A dramatic loss of spontaneity and sense of humor.

        8. Increasing isolation from family and old friends unless they demonstrate an interest in the group/leader.

        9. Anything the group/leader does can be justified no matter how harsh or harmful.

        10. Former followers are at best-considered negative or worse evil and under bad influences. They can not be trusted and personal contact is avoided.

  7. Anonymous says:

    Never really saw you complaining deborah when you where involved in this